december 15 2024

things that happened this week:

• man with a knife outside the apartment, telling everyone who passes by that he wants to die. 

• I get an email from my lawyer and he tells me [redacted]. life is beautiful again.

• dogsitting amy’s puppy, pacino. he poops in my office and my lover laughs at me.

• I find a book on karmic astrology at the thrift. 

• my sister visits and we go to the aquarium and spend the afternoon watching jellyfish float in slow, concentric circles. 

• meetings with [redacted] and [redacted] that go really well.

• I ask Maria for advice. 

• pilates, pilates, pilates.

• late night drinks and spicy honey charcuterie with lizzie and james.

• two young girls at my favourite local independent grocery store, flirting with the tall man behind the bread counter. 

• I rewrite the script for [redacted] again and resist the urge to bang my head open on my desk.

• the idea to start a print soft core erotica magazine for people who want to be normal and not demonic floats around my brain. I send it back to the ether for someone else.

• hot ramen in grey, stone bowls. one and a half helpings.

• me and the girls go watch Morvern Callar at Paradise. I feel a tugging on my soul. I recognize something kindred.

• I delete twitter/x off my phone for 48 hours. I haven’t tweeted since the first of the month.

• another day, another puzzle.

• police arresting two boys in a black Maserati facing the wrong side of the road.

• I forget what day of the week it is and the bookclub chat goes off.

• late nights lit by the christmas tree and the glow from the projector wall, ice frozen on the roof of the neighbour’s garage.